What makes life easier to deal with you ask?, well for me a daily must have is a pack of Newport 100's, "in a box", ofcourse, and a half pint of the cheapest vodka I can find. Is it good for me?, well hell no, But it is better than not having nothing in which case I will pull my hair out, and don't let me have been around my mom for over an hour, It is definite must then.
Three years outta prison and she is fnally going to marry me. I think I am actually happy now. I hope the signs I see are just those, signs that she thinks she has me now so she can just handle me any ole way, lol, she is nervous she says about the part where we have to stand up in front of everyone and say our vows. I personally can't wait. I still love her today just as much as I did when we first started dating 16 + years ago.I am still in school too. She done the Pheniox online thing and got her associated quick. Maybe I should have went that route. I don't I would have made it if I did that thought because I am not disciplined enough to do it that way. The phoenix online deal is very demanding. At least the way did I can work full-time and go to school also. I guess for the most part I am happy. Other than my Mother getting on my nerves we are living comfortable and the bills are paid. We may not be rich but the kids have everything they need and I don't have to worry about going to jail all the time anymore. A piece of mind is priceless.
If you have ever read any of my posts you know that I am not the poetry type although I wish I could write poetry. I mostly just do the venting thing in the hopes someone will read it and give me some words of encouragement. But anyway, I just wanted to go on xanga record saying that things are kinda getting better in my relationship or I just quit giving a shit one but My girl has actually been trying to show her affection a little more, when I whine and pout enough..lol. And I have finished my 6th semester of college also. Who would have ever thought a ole criminal like myself could turn their life around as much as I have. And she says I haven't changed. SHIT ME!!!
Ok , so my wife/really girlfriend because she won't marry me. And by the way, we have been together for 16 years. Except when we broke up for 2 years and she screwed about 6 dudes.Anyway I lov eher and we are going on this trip to Chatanooga TN. today to take the buys on a trip. The problem is that she can already be bitchy type of girl sometimes but now she is on rag and I feel like I am about to go on a date from hell. The problem i I can't just leave. We are gonna be stuck toghther for days in a hotel room. And I really feel sorry for the boys , 9 and 17 years old. They are really gonna catch hell. They always get yelled at even when she is on a good mode .So here we go. Wish me luck. And hey, Don't get me wrong. She is a wonderful,smart beautiful woman and I lve her so much.
Ok, so it's been like forever since I posted anything on Xanga. I'm just plain lazy. But for those of you who remember me, I am the one who just 2 short years ago was released from prison and started college. I have learned alot while in school. One thing that really stood out to me was some statistics that sy I should have already been back in prison 18 months ago. Recidivism rates are so high because of the lack of proper handling of addition related crimes and such. Especially in Alabama where less money is spent per inmate per ca pita than any other correctional dept in the entire U.S.! It is horrible. And guess which state has the highest recidivism rates. Alabama/per ca pita/population. In the United States there are more people in prison than any other country on earth. America spends approx 180 billion dollars on incarcerating people and only 1% of that on preventative measures such as treatment programs and other things of that nature. Don't get me wrong. There are people that deserve to be in prison. I know. I was there and there are some sick bastards in there Then you have the people that will never get it right. But then you have some addicts that can change and want to change but are not given the opportunity they need while being incarcerated. I took it on myself to make a change and prison was what changed my life. But I had to take upon myself to make that change. I think if America would spend a little more effort on prevention and education instead of incarceration we would have a bit more success in the addiction area. Drugs will always be part of peoples coping tools. People don't like the way they feel so they want to control their feelings with substances instead of dealing with the things in life they have no control over.
